lost...................

Still dark is the sky
With no colour to supress the black…….
Still cries the mother soil
With tears coloured with red

The faraway horizon no more
Paints the colours of nostalgia in the sky
The burnt red ocean
Fails to reflect the salt deep inside

The grey smog embraces the mountain top
In endeavor to hide its wet erotic green
The dark clouds of oblivion
Screens the sun …….

A blank canvas lay inside my heart
Waiting for a trembling hand to fill it with colours…….
My misled dreams confine myself in a prison
And I wonder how long ………

No answer echoes the walls of the heart …….
Silence screams with the dreadful pain of loneliness
My presence ethereal to the very existence
Yes I am lost

waiting a resurrection

When thoughts take over my mind

I stare blank……………

The dark oblivion of the night rests upon my shoulder

I lie naked ……………..

Every sinew rolls with the laughter of pain

Bleeds with the deep remorse of frozen times

Times that had long ago ran out of time

My gaze seems to freeze……………

I push through the crowd of long lost thoughts

Memories fly hay-wire in the sky

I lie paralyzed

Suddenly I feel the pain

Of a helpless existence………

I cry but no salt pours out

Just like the river of emotions that had long ago

Lost its battle against the hot desert of agony

I dream the wildest of dreams

Only to realize they were never mine

My body takes an uncanny leap

To break free of this shackels

But I m stuck to the bed

Which long ago had harbored my dead soul

Yes.. I am dead ….

To the very existence of the human race

Just an embodiment that metabolizes

But never breathes love …tastes the colours of petals

I am only a physique

Which has its features but no adrenalin rushes

I live in the world of the deads

Where noses are dedicated lovers of burnt petrol

the night sky remains unadorned..

only for the love of sips of addictions…

Where no rain can evoke a dance of love

The taste of the country roads

Cannot stimulate the taste buds of motherly love

Yes I live in the house of the deads

And I hope ..............and longingly wait

to be painted with colours once again by angel hands

To again resurrect to an eternal life

parle uttor dio .......

Kokhono iche hoeche tomar howrah bridg er tong e chore kolkata dekhar ??

mone hoeche jhap di atol gangar jole...... bilin kore di nijer ostitto

darie dekhecho ki duchok bhore bikeler surjer aloe jholshe jawa gangar rup .

Kokhono ki mone hoeche ektu chekhe dekhi sohorer matir swad ??

Shiter sokaler kuasha ghera poribeshe kokhono ki dudondo bosecho moidan mathe ??

Du polok takie dekhecho ghumer chadore dhaka dhop dhope nishpap sohortake

Kokhono ki sei sobuj satej abhohawae jake bhalobeshecho take aro mone poreche ??

Boro ekta asottho gache helan die ki kolpona korecho premer madhur kono muhurto ??

Bhebecho kokhono fire jai ek lafe koek dosok pechone.dekhi purono kolkatar rup

Soda byasto soda probahoman purono dhormotala r more ektu darai ….

Bus goomtir pase ekta moela drainer samner dokane darie ekta sorbot khai ??

Kokhoni bhese jawar icha hoeche tinso bochorer kallolinir jol-e??

Tram e chore bowbazar theke labazar hoe bibadibag esecho tumi ??

Laldhigi r pase bose kokhono mone korecho sohid sritir kotha

Chowronghee theke park street er dike jete jete khujecho kokhno hargile pakhi ??

Kan pete sonar chesta korecho seal er dak few er paer sobdo ??

Kokhono purono sei hat e tana boro boro rickshaw e chore ghurte icha hoeni ?

Othoba tangae chore Victoria ke prodokhin korar kotha mon-e eseche ??

Borobazar er ghinji rasta . edo goli gulo kokhono pae hete dekhte cheyecho

Sritir bhare klanto kolkata ke kokhono bolecho tomare kori pronam !!

Monument er upor uthe kokhono mone hoeni ektu sohorer gondho suki??

Akasher onek unchu die ure jawa gangchil dekhe kokhono jhor jhor kore kede felecho??

Brishti bheja sodha gondhe ki kokhono harie jawa din gulor sritibilash korecho??

Janla die ki rat er akash dekhe likhte cheyecho kono kobita...... dhorte cheyeho tar soundorjo

Sopno dekhecho ki gan feri korar ??? kobita lekhar r sokolke dhore dhore golpo sonanor

Race course er pas die hete gecho kokhono anmona hoe ?? dekhecho rat er kolkata ??

Victoriar sobuj ghase bhul kore boshe porecho kokhono ?? dekhecho snigdho soumya rup tar ??

Mone hoeni kokhono ekrash kash ful upohar di kauke??

Outram ghat e ki kono dosomir rat e kosto kore rat jege maer bhasan dekhecho??

Hasi kannar sathe bangali r sonskriti ,bhalobasar onobodho drishtanto prottokho korecho

Mone mone pronam korecho ma ke ?? bolecho ki ma abar eso abar tomake boron korbo

Fire ese sararat jege ki sokole mile adda merecho... ..mishti mukh kore pronam korecho boroder??

Koekta proshno chure dilam tomader ….. idur doure ongsho neoa idur gulo ke

Jani ei proshno gulo ajke britha...... mone hoche ami pagol, bodho unmad !!

Biswaoner juge sohorer matir swad khujte chai …….sorir rangai tar ronge

Na bhai ami pagol noi ….. kichu harie jawa sukho anubhuti khuje berai ami

It kath concreter tolae chapa pore jawa kichu sriti ke fire pete chai ami

Ami jani ei proshno gulor uttor tomra dite parbe na ….. uttor nei tomader kache

Karon tomra sopno dekhona mogoj becho ….. tomra unnotir dut …….

Pagla hawae ga bhasie nachte tomra janona …. Juger hawae urte paro sudhu

Meghla rat e akash dekhar obokash nei tomader ..ache night club r neshar chumuk

Kintu bhebe dekhte paro ekbar kothagulo............. chesta korte paro onubhob korar

R kokhono amake mone porle khujo ei sriti gulor majhkhane..........

Ami achi ei sritir jongole ....ekhanei notun kono purono sritir hodis korchi

Ekhanei khujchi ami jiboner mane

ontoratmar proshno .........

Hothat ekta dhoate jomat badha ondhokar choker upor ese namlo .Kichuta abchha kichuta ronger abha jukto abar kichuta gholate .Sei ondhokarer ghonoghotar chador sorie aste aste choker samne ese daralo ekta manush .Tar mukhta poriskar noe kintu chena lagche ……bhishon chena . eki ????? eto ami !!!! e ki kore sombhob ??? aste aste chari paser ondhokartao kete jache .kintu manush ta nirob … sudhu du chok bhora kotha nie amar dike takie ache .Na eguloke thik kotha bola jae na ..proshno bola jete pare ….ha proshnoi bote !!!! kintu proshnogulo thik bujhte parchi na . keno ???? keno erom hoche ???? abar sei ondhokarta garho hoe asche …….are manush tao to sei ondhokare abar milie ache aste aste …..dhoae …………..rojakr moto ajkeo milie jache se ……..

Na e ki sopno na bastob?? …roj rat e e ki hoche ..choker samne roj roj ei oshosti…Proshno gulor mane aste aste bujhte parchi ………montake aro bhabie tulche roj rat e…du chokh ek korte bhoy hoche …….bujhte parchi ami proshno gulo !!!!! sei chok duto obyartho proshno ban e amake bidho kore choleche din er por din …..rat er por rat ……..osohae lagche amar !!!..........................

“keno????amar ei anonde bhora rongin sustho jibon ta ke dhoyar moto jomat ondhokare misie dile ?? keno amake sadakalor gondi te abodho kore dile???”

“nosto hole tumi nosto korle amake sasthi dile amake ?? amar poribar ke jalie dile ekta neshagrosto manusher jolunite ???”

“til til kore amake amar sorir ta ke keno marcho ???”

amar hate toiri amar ontoerer sustho sobuj atma ta aj jeno ajker ami ..neshae akranto asustho porittokto amake proshno korche?? .bar bar mone kore diche je ami e amake marchi …rugno kore tulchi …din e din e jibon rekhar opare nie jachi , mrityu mukhe potito korchi !!sobuj satej niriho ekta pran ke khun korechi …. Somajer samne nesha grostho duschoritro kore tulechi ….. sobar bhalobasa sobar sneho … sob kacher manus her theke dur kore diechi …..ekta ondhokar goli r modhe chok bedhe thele diechi …..sudhu hetei jache …dekhte parchena kothae jache se…..bitarito korechi somaj theke!

Nah !!! roj rat er ei dosharop osojho ek jontrona !! kintu sojho korte hobei amake ..buker modhe ekta manush ke khun korar dae nie sara jibon palie berate hobe ……kintu kar theke paliei ba berabo ??? nijer thekei ???? palie jabo kothae ??? nijer chhaya theke ki kore palabo ????ekta bikot chitkar kore chhute palate parle hoeto bhalo hoto !!kintu sei ek e proshno ……… kothae palabo ?? kar theke palabo ???? na e dussoho jontrona !! odbhut kostodayok onubhuti !! kintu amar to palanor o odhikar nei ….ami to papi ami to khuni !! amar to sasthi adrishter deal e khodito hoe roeche ….!! Tobe etai ki amar sasthi ????ei ontorer onubhuti e ki amar sasthi ??? ei jontrona nijer kache nijei obhijukto howatai ki amar sasthi ????dhoar aral theke berie asa neshae konkalshar dehe porinoto amakei roj bar bar kore dekha tai ki amar sasthi ?? tobe tai bhalo …..

Sasthi dao amake !!!! anukompa korona !!! se aro marattok se aro osojho ek jontrona ….!!! Sasthi dao amake.. sasthi dao !!! tar e songe khomota dao amake nesha tyag korar . dhoar baire berie rongin prithibita ke notun kore dekhte !! chokh theke dhusor rongta muchhe fele ramdhanu ke dhorbar sakti dao !!! …………sasthi dao amake ……..sasthi dao !!

colours ...........

If we lost the ability to perceive all the colours in the colour wheel, and instead became limited to an achromatic view, the world would still remain a stunningly beautiful space. The images that we once cherished for their hue, and intensity would be instead looked upon in the light of their value. The spectrum of things used to judge the visual world would be at once limited. This limitation greatly simplifies, and this simplification can often make images more beautiful: more purely appreciated. The sheer amount of information present in a landscape can overwhelm us, and all this information can mask the beauty of the contrasts of value that are present. Seeing only this, we gain a greater sense of depth in the world we feel through our eyes. For example, a mountain scene, that in chromatic, is seen through the blue in the sky and the range of brownish colours in its cliffs, instead might be seen for the moody white and gray clouds floating over its sharp black peaks covered in ice cold white snow. The greater sense of depth in an achromatic view can easily inspire a more dramatic emotional feel toward our being, towards existance and evry other aspects of eternal life .

infusion er confusion

Boyosh gorie kurir ghore rekheche jei na pa

Shahityer goli ghuchi te coffe house er cha

Ghun dhora ei table e bose charminar ta thote

Budhujibir dol e nam lekhabo infusion sathe

Har bar kora jirno kathamo sritir bhare klanto

Nobin juger andolone e utsaho afuronto

Probin ra sob pasei boshe muchki hese dekhe

Nobin ekhono kagojei tar proibad rakhe likhe

“amrao bhai korechi esob michil kimba meeting

paromanobik chukti nieo coffee house er sitting”

nandigram r singur jokhon tata r katae bidhdho

table tatei chapor mere……. “amra bhari krudhho”!!

urdi pora bearara sob muchki muchki hase

bhabe….. adda chere uthlo na !!era rezwanoor er pase ?

Aro bhabe nobin piri r utsahotao mathei mara jabe

Hobe na keno?? probin naki pothprodorshok tara sudhui boshe bhabe!!

Dat barkora coffe houser dewal gulo shakhi

Kotoi erom elo gelo sudhu protibad gelo phaki

Utsaho sob kagoje kolome protibad kobitate

Tobu nobin probin dui asbe deshodharer sadhe

Kobita r protibad er chironton ei pithosthan

Asole se je adda marar nostalgic sthan

Dhoar gondhe dhoya hoe sob protibad ure jae

Infusion e confusion tobu coffee house ta theke jae

Sakhi thake ei ghun dhore jawa chair table gulo

Ei char dewal er modhei theke jae protibad gulo

Ajke jara nobin tara kal ke probin hobe

Pase bosha nobin der dekhe erao muchki hasbe

Mone korbe nijearo sei kuri bochor boyoshe

Coffe houser er swad peyeche desher jonne kichu korte

Korte kichui pareni r erao parbe na

Tobu kom khorchae adda marar furti sholo ana

Sei furtir majhkhane abar sritibilasher swad

coffee house tai tomare selam .........adda jindabad !!

ekti osohae ostitto

Sohorer kolahol ta onektai fike hoe ase ediktae .durer akash ta ektu lalche hoe ache soharer aloe. dhare kacher jesob panshala guli jader biswaoner juge amra “bar” ba “ pub” bole thaki segulou sob charie onekta dur chole jete hobe. kichuta hatlei ekta edo goli tar dudhare har bar kora british amoler bari jora jirno obosthae pore ache. tader nona dhora deal jeno swatantro bharoter upekhar r onadore biluptoprae hoe poreche .tobuo jeno sriti bhare bharakranto golita british sobhottar kotha janan die choleche. .kichuta durei ekta panshala eta tothakothito sei “ bar” ba “pub” noe ..etao british amole er.nam holo “ripon’s pub” deale nona dhora purono purono gondho .bhitore dhukle mone hoe jeno madhyajuger ekta janashobhae uposthit hoechi .tobuo jeno kono appayon nei, nei bearer somador kore table e nie gie bosano .nake mod r ciggerate r dhoar ek odbhut songmisrito gondho ese thekche ..ekta ek tana violin er mormantik sur jeno ei panshalar dukhei somobyathi take somobedona jancahe. Gholate ekta poribeshe alo adharir khela …kichu mukh odrisho kichu abcha ondhokare abrito.monta kemon nostalgic hoe pore ei poribeshe ….. jeno hothat kore ekguchho sriti mone pore gelo ..kichu bhalobashar sriti kichu dukhho kichu bedonar abar tar e modhe ekta dhoate chehara …..monta pichie ae onek gulo bochor .

Bes kichuta somoe kete geche ei panshalae boshe achi. Monta sritir dheu e uthal pathal .choker kone hoeto halka ekta nomoniota anubhab korte parchi , ektu bheja bheja thekche …na !!! eta moner bhul asole hoeto ajke kagoje kolome abar ek hobe hoeto toiri hobe ekta khosra..sei ekgheye ekta bhalobashar kobita ….kono notunotto nei ei kobitar bhasae tao jeno kiser tane berie pore ek ekta kobita ……kono bisrito manushke mone pore gie tar uddhese lekha ekta kobita ….

Kintu eta ki sudhui kobita ???? na ki ekta chitkar ???ekta bikot jontronar chitkar?? Naki kauke hothat kore kichu na bola kotha bolefelar icha ..kichu jobabdihi kichu osohaeotar bohiprokash ……..naki kichu pete chaoa. Roj roj eieki khosra toiri kori ..ondhokar ei poribeshe boshe jiboner alo , beche thakar ses dip ke khojar chesta kori …..naki kotha r madhome ja bolte parini likhe bojhanor adommo khide . kagojer sukno patae hridoyer ekanto apon bheja anubhui gulo ke tule dhorar chesta ??? ekta osohae oborudhosasrudho kanna ……jar kono sobdo nei ???? kintu chitkar to ache ?? naki setao nei ????

Choloman jiboner bus e footboard dhore jhule achi ….sudhu ektu jaega ache tate ekta pa thekano konomote …ekta dhorar moto rod thakle ektu nischinti hoto .ektu jor petam !!! jiboner boe chola noditar tore bhese jete jete ekta khor kuto dhore atke thakar chesta korchi …..!!!! sei khor kuto ba sei bus er rod tai khojar ekta byartho chesta kore cholechi ei kobitar modhe die .sudhu kagojei likhe cholechi r pener kali nosto kore cholechi ..sedin ta dure nei jedin ei kagoj gulo jaliei sunno hari chapate hobe panta bhat rannar jonno ….telchite kalshite hari tao janan diche je tar din furie elo . kintu osohae ami oparok ami kichui korte parina .bhat khawar poesa jotena kintu roj shondhe belay “ripon’s pub” e ekta dhu martei hoe …karon jiboner loraita lorte lorte bhulei jai je kichu sriti fele esechi jiboner purono dil gulo te ….jegulo nie ektu sriti bilash kora jae …r ei sritiguloi amar ekmatro sompotti amar dhon daulat….kichu poesa khosie sei morche pora dhan daulat gulo ke ektu chamak die nie jai roj bari ferar pothe ektu chokchoke kore nie ..ektu notun bananor chesta kori ……kinty sei chestao byartho rater ondhokare ghorer olpo aloe jokhon sasta mode bhije jawa bichanaa pithe theke ..r sara sorir ke ekti lashe porinoto kore tokhon sei bihobol choke sudhu ektana cheye thaka tai theke jae ..sei ghuronto pakha tar dike fyalfyal osohae drishti oshar dehe cheye thaka ….ufff diner seser jontrona …..na jibon songramer noe jiboner sei khor kuto ta ke pawar …..moder nesha dhire dhire mostisko ke gras korte suru kore chinta bhabna r tar sathe anubhutigulo aste aste khin hoe jae..aste aste rat ghonie ase chokher sei khola pata gulor upor r pata gulo sriticharon korte korte tader e bhare aste aste nuie pore …..byas !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sob ondhokar sob ses…….mone kone ekta awaz tobuo bole kalke abar notun kore surjo uthbe notun kore bhor hobe notun ekta din asbe rater kalima ,glani ,ondhokar ke pichone fele manus abar ei din take duhat khule aobhan korbe abar notun kore jiboner loraier jonno prostut hobe ,………amio uthbo amio bachbo abar aro ekta din aro ekta din korbo songram abar hoeto toiri korbo notun ekta khosra kichu kagoj kichu pener kali nosto hobe ….abar hoeto khuje pawar chesta korbo jibon nodi to bhese jawa sei amar akre dhorar khor kuto ta ke !!!!!!!!!!! abar r ekta din katabo ami amar sritir bojha ghare kore …..abar ekta aborto ghurbe ekta jibon ………. Kichu ta sadrishho peye jabo sei ghuronto pakha ar sathe ei jiboner ghuronto abortor ….!!!

Ha ei bhabei beche thakbo ami ..ei bhabei din er por din dhorar chesta korbo jiboner choloman buser sei rod ….khojar chesta korbo nodite bhese jete jete sei khor kuto …….r ei chesta korte kortei ekdin jibon garir prochondo godirodh e hothat pa horke jabe …paer olae foot board sore gie toile jabo sei garir chakar tolae …r gari ta ghor ghor sobde chole jabe amar upor die …byas tarpor ..sei din sondhe belae amake r sei “ ripon’s pub” er ekgheye jora jirno poribeshe khuje pawa jabena …kono table dokhol kore nie sriti bilsh korte keu protokhho korbe na …kagoj r pener kali khoroch ta theme jabe ….violiner ekgheye sure r srotar sonkha ekta kome jabe sasta moder ekta kreta kom porbe moder dokane …..nesha korar agei mostisko tolie jabe ek bhishon ondhokare aj sriti bilash na korei choker pata gulo jiboner bhare nuie porbe …….etogul din ei osohae sorir nei beche thakar dhokol r soite parbe na .neme asbe rat ..aste aste dhire dhire gras korbe puro prithibitake ..amar prithibike …..r sekhanei atke jabe amar jiboner aborton . r surjo uthbena ei choker paar upor ..r kono aloe ghum bhangebe na … !!!! ei bhabe ghotbe ekta jiboner obosan …!!!!!!!!!!1 sob chawa pawar hiseb nikesh shesh ……….

protibader prohoson ........

Parina ami kobita likte

Chaina melate chondo

Tobuo moner majhe ache

Andoloner chondo

Rezwanoor ke sohid banate uthe pore aj legechi

Lab bazarer kalo bazarir mukhosh kholar dondo

Rel pare bhaslo jahar rokte premer bonna

Mrityu pathe patito hoeo bojhalo somajtontro

Ekushe ain desher ain eto tai ki thunko ?

Nogor prodhan tomare selam dekhale gundatontro !!

Utheche nishan rongta tobuo fakase hoei ache

Manusher sei protibadeo ki bhejal meshano ache?

Byabsa cholche charidike aj tomare nie he premik

Gurutto nei tomar ache godi bodlanor hirik

keu ba bolche charte hobe godi noile michil korbo

rashtrokhomota hatate rezwanoor ke ostro korbo

oparok ami oparok sobe amra bhoei mori

dudhe bhate thakbo ei sopnoi buke dhori

rezwanoor je morle tate amar ki elo gelo

chhaposa amra andolon amader na korai bhalo

ajuhat ache thoter agae amra khudro manush

kibhabe orabo amra ei andoloner fanush

protibad kori kagoje kolome protibad keyboard e

protibad tau parena tobuo matha tule hak dite

jodi protibad amake banae r ek rezwanoor

takar bodole mogoj bechar sopno hobe je dur

kenoje parina Janie dite ami rezwanoor er songi

keno je parina todike janate amara tader dhondhi

lal rong aj kalo hoe geche kalo bazarir khelae

gola chere hak parina dite protibad sudhu lekhae

tai parbona ami kobita likhte hobena melano chhondo

rezwanoor er rokte kemon sohid sohid gondho

parbona ami kobita likhte

chaina melate chhondo

tobuo moner majhe ache

andoloner chhondo…………….